Since I remember, I was taught the do, the don’t, the must, the have to, and the can’t, trying to burn it all in my brain as the “how to” or the “what to”. How to speak, how to dress, how to do my make-up, how to love, how to have sex, what to eat, what to study, what job to do, what music to listen, how to travel, what to think, how to feel, what to buy, how to sleep, what movies/series to watch, how to enjoy books, how to be a woman, how to pleasure… I was catalogued, judged, criticized, silenced, shamed.
Today I choose. I choose my cage and who to trust with the key. I choose how to free myself by surrendering control. I choose to follow the command and to face the consequences. I choose to test my limits and which of my boundaries to break. I choose to communicate my truths. I choose when I need to stop.
Today I choose to submit.